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A Goddess's Day Off

Chapter 1 of Divine Influence


     The sun shone brightly upon the marble temple below.  It stood as a solemn and serene structure admist a bountiful field of flowers.  To the left of the temple was a large fountain with a statue of a water bearer in the center and to the right was a single cherry tree overflowing with sugar pink blossoms.  A path of colored stones led up to the steps of this building, the only one within visible range.  A small brook babbled softly, not diminishing the peace of schene even slightly.  There seemed no pain in this place, no illness or fear, and usually that was the case.  Today however the temple was a house of despair, as its maintainer had recently fallen into a deep depression.

     Though the halls of the large temple, its guardian passed morbidly through.  She had a stern look on her feline face, and she appeared deep in thought as she walked along with her eyes closed.  She finally came to rest at a large window that over looked the fountain.  She opened her crystal blue eyes slowly and gazed out upon the serene schene.Her tail twiched and her ears flickered as the sun beat down on her face.  She sighed and brushed back her long golden blonde hair.

     "Just another perfect day.  As always another pefect day," she moaned.

     She turned around and strolled slowly over to another window directly across from her.  Her floor lenght green gown ruffled as she moved.  Once she had reached the window she looks upon the cherry tree clearly visible beyond it.  Pink petals fell slowly like snow from the fragile looking tree.  She sighed once more.

     "Another day full of creations and endings, of lives and deaths that I must attend to.  My existence is so mundane!  Always the same tasks, the same duties, never any changes!  How I do despise what I was chosen to do for all eternity!  How I wish I could just get away from it all!"

     The temple keeper jumped away from the window in disgust.  She quickly turned and dashed out the front gate of the temple.  Once she reached the marble steps she dropped to the ground and threw her glance into the sky.

     "I have had so much on my mind lately.  Training the Mystic Guardians has become a great hassle, thanks to that little monster.  He thinks so little of me.  That I don't know what it's like to be mortal.  He doesn't even know... I was mortal once.  It seems so long ago, now.  Maybe I have gotten a little out of touch, but what's to be expected after 15,300 years?"

     The feline girl laid down upon the cool marble steps.  She let out a deep breath and closed her eyes.  She remained there considering all of the issues that were causing her grief.  She knew there was a solution, but she just couldn't see it.  Suddenly she vaulted to her feet, her face shown with excitement.

     "That's it!" shouted the girl.  "The answer was so simple I can't believe I didn't see it before!  I will become mortal again, for a time at least.  It'll be my vacation, I have been doing such a wonderful job for so long that I surely deserve one!  Living life like that again.  It will be wonderful!  Mortals always have variation in their lives, not to mention I can really teach Janus a lesson!"

     As quickly as her ethusiasm had risen, it once again sank.  The smile left her face.

     "How foolish I am being.  Goddesses don't get vacations, especially when they hold a job as critical as mine.  I can't just abandon my station.  How will beings be born while I'm gone?  How will they die?  The world would be in chaos!  Unless I can find someone to take over my job for a short while.  But who?"

     The goddess dashed back into her temple and over to a small altar.  She placed her right hand upon it until a bright white light shot up.  She removed her hand and an image soon took form.  The holographic face of an apple green weasel like creature appeared.

     "Hiya Brigitte.  What's up?!  Must've been a 100 years since ya called me!" greeted the hologram.

     "Hello, Nixel," grumbled the goddess.  "Could you call someone else over?  I have an important matter to deal with and I need someone responsible."

     The weasel creature grew furious and looked as if he was going to start shouting.  He then suddenly mellowed out, but appeared very depressed and almost at tears. Brigitte watched a few moments longer as his attitude changed once more.  Her own heart sank as an almost sinster smile crossed his face.

     "So I'm not good 'nuf for ya huh?  Iszat what ya think?  Well I got news for ya sister.  I'm the only help ya got going for ya!  Everyone else is busy.  So it's me or nuthing!" declared Nixel.

     "Don't lie to me.  I know you want to prove yourself, but this is too important"
 
     "I'm not lying.  Why'd ya think I answered when you looked for someone 'responsible'?" insisted Nixel.
 
     Brigitte considered the possiblities for a moment and then grudgedily accepted that he spoke the truth.  She desperately wanted to get away from her mundane life.  She couldn't wait.  She knew she had no choice but to accept his help at what ever cost it would bring.  She sighed and Nixel smiled menacingly.  He knew he had won.
 
     "Very well.  I am taking leave of my post.  I need someone to watch over the Nexxus and guide the souls while I am away," explained Brigitte.  "Would you be willing to take over my job for a short while?"
 
     "Heh!  All right!  That sounds fun!"  Sure thing I'll be right over!" exclaimed Nixel.
 
     Within a few seconds Brigitte heard shouting near the entrance of her Temple.  She ran to the gate, but before she could reach it she was almost knocked over by Nixel.  He plowed right through her and make himself comfortable in her home.  She watched him in disgust as he threw his few possessions onto her floor and placed his feet upon her table.
 
     "NIXEL!!" hollared Brigitte".  "You had better take this seriouslly or I will rip out each of your hairs when I return!  And don't put your feet on my table, you act like you were raised in a barn!"
 
     Nixel jumped to his feet and walked slowly over to an enraged Brigitte.
 
     "Easy there, sweetheart.  Don't worry, I was just getting used to your prissy little spot here.  I'll do a great job.  Matter of fact I bet I will!  If I do a good job, ya gotta go on a date with me or something!" ashured Nixel.
 
     "Date you?  Ha!  I'd rather have my teeth pulled out.  I can't stand you as an aquaintance, never for one of your silly games would I risk having to go out with you.  Just repulsive!" remarked Brigitte.
 
     "Man ya need that vacation!  Better get outta here now before you turn ta ice!"

     Nixel pushed Brigitte out of the front gate of the temple and onto the steps.  He then disappeared back inside, leaving her on the standing there.  Thrown outside of her own temple, she wanted nothing more than to return.  This couldn't happen now. She knew that the deal was set.  He would hopefully watch over the Nexxus and perform the duties of the deity of Life while she was away.
 
     "So its settled.  I have gotten my wish.  Soon I will play my own part in the story of life, but I need to fit my new role.  I would look very odd roaming the streets with my feline body."
 
     Brigitte held out her hand and a green choaker with a pale blue bell on it appeared.  As she placed it around her features began to shift from feline to human.  Within a few minutes her cat goddess form had faded away and she now appeared to be an ordinary young lady.  She ran over to the brook and peared into the pristine waters.  She was momentarily shocked by the face the looked back at her, but soon grew to enjoy it.
 
     "My how charming!  I look so pleasant, no one would suspect who I really am.  Perfect!  I'm all set now!"
 
     With a grand smile across her face Brigitte ran down the marble path to the Exit of the Nexxus.  She looked back briefly at her serene homeland, and the disappeared into a luminesecent cloud that lead to the land of the mortals.

* * *
 
     The streets of Valendez where littered with people.  The bustling port city was full of citizens going about their daily activities.  Brigitte entered the busy streets silently.  She had never seen so many people in such a great rush!  It was like a flowing river of faces.  It was definitly different from the calm ways of her temple.  She watched as children played tag in the streets and the peddlers pushed their merchandise.  She was so enthralled by all the routine wonders, that she was barely paying attention to where she was going.  She did not see the man in front of her carrying the bussels of apples until it was too late.  She crashed into, knocking herself to the ground and spilling the apples down upon her.  She felt as each one hit her now mortal body, and was shocked to find herself in mild pain.  So absorbed with this feeling she deafened herself to the peddler's shouting.  She had forgotten about his presence almost entirely, until he slapped her hard across the face.  It stung terribly.  She rubbed her cheek and turned her head towards him slowly.
 
     "Listen ta me when I talk ta ya, wench!"  hollared the peddler.
 
     "I'm... sorry.  I didn't see you, that's all.  No real harm done," appolized Brigitte.
 
     "No harm?!  You've ruined the entire bussel!  Don't you know how much this's gonna run me?" exclaimed the peddler.
 
     "I will repay you for it somehow.  I am just not sure how.  I don't have any money," replied Brigitte.
 
     "What?!  No money! Worthless whore I'll beat the life outta ya!"  hissed the peddler.
 
     The peddler grabbed Brigitte by the should and shoved her into a nearby building.  It felt like he was trying to crush her as he pushed her harder into the wall.  He drew back his fist as far as he could and paused, building up strenght.  His knuckles turned sickly white as he clenched his fist tighter.  He swung forward quickly with great power.  Brigitte screamed and closed her eyes as his fist came within inches of her face.  And then it stopped.  She slowly openned her eyes, unsure of what had just happened.  She saw the angry peddler glaring angrily at her with a maliceful look upon his face.  He wanted to punch her desperately, but something was stopping him.
 
     "C'mon Siego, that's no way to treat a girl," came a voice from behind the peddler.
 
     The peddler turned his head and glared hatefully behind him.  Slowly he loosened his iron grip upon Brigitte's shoulder until she was able to escape.  She slid herself away from the wall and cautiously walked behind her attacker.  A young man stood there, restraining the peddler.  She examined him carefully.  His dark brown hair was kept short, and his bangs fell an inch above his midnight blue eyes.  He appeared to be of average build for his age, which was around fifteen.  She jumped back as he faced her.  Had he noticed her watching him?
 
     "Hey are you okay?  You're not hurt or anything are you?" asked the young man.
 
     "I'm fine, thanks to you.  That man probably would have killed me," replied Brigitte.
 
     "Siego, naw.. but he would've definitely busted you up pretty bad.  Don't worry about him now, he's not important," comforted the young man.
 
     "Hey!  I am to important!  What about all my apples?  What about all the money I lost?" complained the peddler.
 
     The young man turned to the peddler.  His expression showed great annoyance for the rude interuption. He shoved the peddler back a few steps and stared directly into his eyes.  Even though the peddler was clearly his senior, he slumped down submissively.
 
     "How much do you owe me Siego?" questioned Fenadeir.  "Higher than you care to remember, huh?  Well I'll pick up the damages the girl caused, that should cover about a quater of your tab."

     "Your prices are too high," grumbled the peddler as he walked away.

     "Yes they are but, you always come back."
 
     "Go to Hell, Fenadeir!" snarled the peddler.
 
     "I'll meet you there," retorted the youth.
 
     "You sure showed him,"  commented Brigitte.
 
     The young man turned back to Brigitte.
 
     "Sorry about that.  I didn't mean to turn my back on such a lovely lady as yourself, but I had to end that matter.  Allow me to introduce myself, I am Fenadeir Fisher, and yourself?" informed Fenadeir.
 
     "Brigitte... um.. just Brigitte.  Pleased to make your acquaintence," greeted Brigitte.
 
     Fenadeir gently took hold of Brigitte's hand.  He brought it to his lips and softly kissed it.  She was shocked by this gesture.  Her face turned bright red, but she wasn't sure why.  She had taken the form of an ordinary human, but does that mean she'd fallen under the influence of their emotions.  He acted so refined and proper, qualities she found most appealing.  He looked back up and her and she smiled slightly.
 
     "You've had a hard day, maybe I can repay you for it.  I know an Inn with a great tavern, if you want I can take you there and you can get anything you want.  Don't worry about money, it's all settled," suggested Fenadeir.
 
     "Oh thank you that sounds just wonderful!  Lead on!"  exclaimed Brigitte.
 
     Fenadeir led Brigitte down the streets of Valendez to a small building.  It was set on the edge of a crystal clear pond surrounded in trees.  From a wire attached to the roof hung a sign upon which "The Five Torches" was printed in script lettering.  Fenadeir opened the large wooden door and beckoned Brigitte in.  She thanked him, and entered. He found them a table and seated her before he sat down.  They both ordered wine and nothing more.  They slowly drank their wine and conversed.  Fenadeir got closer to her as they spoke, and attemped to get more familar with her.
 
     "I could never forget a face as fair as yours, you aren't from around here are you?" questioned Fenadeir.
 
     "Correct.  I'm not from around here.  I'm from somewhere far off, but yet near; a place full of life, but still dead.  It's hard to explain," answered Brigitte.
 
     "It sounds like it.  So what do you call this place?" inquired Fenadeir.
 
     "Well... I um...  what do I call it?  Well that's sorta hard to say... um..," stutterd Brigitte.
 
     Brigitte continued to stall in a desperate attempt to buy some time until she could come up with a proper story.  Unfortunately after several momments she realized it was hopeless.  She started laughing hysterically for a few moments and then suddenly stopped humilated.  Fenadeir watched her entire schene with a confused look upon his face.
 
     "What's the matter, cat got your tounge?" joked Fenadier.
 
     Brigitte rolled her eyes back and blushed a bright crimson. She then dropped her head down to the table and hid her face in her arms.  Fenadier was more confused than ever.  He reached across the table and shook Brigitte slightly to see if she was still responsive.  She slowly lifted her head up and smiled reasuringly.
 
     "Don't worry.  It's nothing really.. it's just that when you said that, it reminded me... that I forgot to feed my cat,"  remarked Brigitte.
 
     "Oh...  well I guess that makes sense. Now where were we?"  asked Fenadeir.
 
     "Fenadeir!  Fenadier!!" called a voice from behind the pair.  "You're supposed to be working today not chatting!  Did you think you could just leave me here to do all the work?"
 
     Fenadeir and Brigitte turned towards the source of this new interruption.  Before them stood a chestnut haired girl of eighteen years.  Her green eyes where fixed on Fenadeir.  She was furious, but yet possessed an air of rationity.  Brigitte glanced from this new girl to Fenadeir and back to girl.  The three watched each other silently for a breif while, before he spoke up.
 
     "I hate to cut things short, Brigitte, but I have to go.  I'm supposed to be working today.  Azelle, won't give me any time off."
 
     "Well.. you take enough breaks as it is.  Really when I told you you could become my partner I actually expected you to work!  I don't know what I was thinking!"  exclaimed the girl.
 
     "You two... run this place?"  inquired Brigitte.
 
     "Yeah.  We became parnerers after the Manalene Inn, my home, burned down.  Well I don't really wanna talk about that.  It's been nice Brigitte.  Stop by at eight.  I'll be on break then, so I'll see you then," replied Fenadeir.
 
     "All right.  I'll be here.  I can't wait!" agreed Brigitte.
 
     Fenadier kissed Brigitte gentlely on the cheek before he was lead away by Azelle. They said goodbye as he was taken through the door to the staff area.  Brigitte stood silently for a moment considering what had just happened to her.  She had had a delightful time, and could hardly bear to wait for a few more hours to see him again.  She knew she had some sort of crush on this mortal boy, and he seemed attracted to her as well.  This was more than she had ever bargined for on her vacation!
 
     Brigitte left the Five Torches Inn on an emotional high.  She was so excited and light hearted that she couldn't even remember the depression that had lead to her trip into the mortal world, or the incompetent fool she had left the caretaker of her imporant position.  She glided down the streets of Valendez elegantly.  She looked in all directions, absorbing every detail of that day for future recollection.  She had only gone a quarter of a mile away from the inn when she spotted a familar form walking a short distance in front of her.  She recognized the short, sickly looking, palid skinned child before her.  His shoulder lenght pale blue hair shown in the sunlight.
 
     "Janus! Janus turn around!"  called Brigitte.
 
     The blue haired boy turned around.  His blood red eyes looked searchingly through the crowd behind him.  His long pointed ears listened intently for the voices return.  With that look of confusion upon his face he truely looked his ten years.  Brigitte dashed over to him, now completely confident of his identity.
 
     "Janus I'm so glad to see you!  I've had the most wonderful day that I simply must explain to you!"  declared Brigitte.
 
     "Who the hell are you?!"  growled Janus.
 
     Brigitte explained to Janus how she had taken the form of a human to spend some time away from her goddess life.  She told him how she had met a boy named Fenadeir Fisher, and how he took her out.  She tried to express her enthusiasm in words, but she found it was far to grand to explain.  If she had been thinking more clearly she would have noticed how odd it was for Janus to be paying attention to her.  However, she was too excited to even notice the sinster smirk that he now bore.
 
     "You're in love with Fish?!" exclaimed Janus before he burst into laughter.
 
     "What's so funny?"  probed Brigitte neverously.
 
     "You are!  You actually like HIM?  What's even funnier is that you think HE likes YOU!  You don't know even know the first thing about him!" shouted Janus.
 
     "What?!  Why do you say that?!  What do you know!"  screamed Brigitte.
 
     "I know he hits on anything that moves!  Old girls, young girls, rich girls, poor girls, guys who look like girls.  As long as he thinks its female and pretty he'll try and get her!  He doesn't care about you or anything!"  explained Janus.
 
     "You're lying!  You only want to make me unhappy!  I refuse to believe you!  I won't listen to another word of this!" declared Brigitte.
 
     "Ha!  Fine!  It's your funeral.  Don't blame me when he runs off with someone else and leaves you in the dirt!  I'm telling you I've never seen him stay interested in someone for more than a day!" insisted Janus. "You shouldn't feel special because he paid attention to you.  You made yourself look sorta nice, that's the only reason he cared.  Did you even watch where he was looking?"
 
     Brigitte stormed off as Janus continued to taunt her.  She couldn't believe the things he had said!  Fenadeir seemed so nice, so sweet, he couldn't possibly be as fickle as Janus portrayed him!  Could he?  She didn't know what to think, and did not want to.  All she wished to do was deny what that little brat had told her, and continue her vacation.  He was always a liar, he never told the truth or worked seriously on anything.  She continued to convince herself that Janus's words were meaningless as she wandered aimlessly through the streets to try and waste away the time until eight o'clock.

* * *

 
     Fenadeir was busy washing dishes in the back staff room when he heard the unmistakible voice of Janus calling to him.
 
     "Fish!  FISH!!  Are you there?!"
 
     He couldn't stand having Janus around, he was so unpredicible.  No one ever knew whether he would behave himself or be his more typically obxious self  when ever he was spotted.  He was so flip, always mouthing off to people, he digusted almost everyone he met.  On top of everything he always called Fenadeir "Fish".  It was clearly a nickname taken from his last name, Fisher, but it was one he completely detested.  No matter how many times he'd begged Janus to stop calling him that, he never did.
 
     "Fish!  Fish!  Answer me!"
 
     Janus continued to shout for a brief time, before he grew bored of waiting.  He looked around the Tavern area quickly, before deciding that Fenadeir must be in the staff room.  He pushed through the swinging door, disreguarding a posted notice for all non-staff members to remain outside.  He walked over to Fenadeir and kicked him firmly in the shin.  Fenadeir gazed hatefully down at him.
 
     "Why didn't you answer me!?"  demanded Janus.
 
     "Because having to put up with you makes me want to vomit," answered Fenadeir.

     "I'm busy now, can't you go torment someone else?"
 
     "No way!  No one else is hitting on Brigitte!" retorted Janus.
 
     Fenadeir stopped working.  He realized that Janus knew things that he did not, and wouldn't just allow it to pass.  He had to know what it was the boy knew and how he knew it.
 
     "How do you know Brigitte?"  questioned Fenadier.
 
     "Easy, she's my boss.   She's the Goddess of Life, the trainer of the Mystic Guardians.  She's also a cat girl,"  flatly remarked Janus.
 
     Fenadeir got pale.  He remembered now that Janus had mentioned a person known as Brigitte before.  She was a cat goddess, and the judge of mortal's souls.  It seemed to fit into place with what she had told him.  She had no last name, and neither did the goddess.  She was from the Nexxus, gateway to the spirit world, definitely a place unlike any other.  He had thought she was just another helpless girl, but she wasn't even human.  Janus waited silently for all of the ideas raised by this to sink into Fenadeir's head.  He seemed to enjoy the chaos he had created, and smiled to himself as Fenadeir stared blankly off.
 
     "I can't believe it... she acted like another helpless girl, but she's not even really human," commented Fenadeir.
 
     "Yup!  She's the Goddess of Life and Death.  The final judge of all mortal souls.  I hope you were nice to her," responded Janus.
 
     "I can't believe it!  I was flirting with a cat?!"  exclaimed Fenadeir.
 
     "Hey how you feel about cats is none of my business!" declared Janus.
 
     "That's it!" hollared Fenadeir has he slamed his fist into a counter.  "Get outta here now and don't ever come back!  You've gone too far this time!"
 
     Fenadeir chased Janus out of the Five Torches Inn.  He wasn't able to catch him, since Janus was by far faster than him, but succeeded in driving him away.  He didn't leave quietly, but turned and faced the inn.  He gathered all his strenght and shouted to Fenadeir.
 
     "You should be thanking me!!!"
 
     Fenadeir opened the door momentarily and cursed Janus out.  He then slammed the door hard, almost ripping it off the hinges.  Janus knew he had no further business there, and quietely walked away.  He had already had his heartless fun at the expense of two people's emotions.  It was enough work for him that day.  With him gone, Fenadeir was left to contemplate the issues he now faced alone.  Brigitte would be back later and he would be expected to say something.

* * *

 
     Brigitte paced nerviously about the doorway to the Five Torches Inn.  She heard the clock chimes ringing off in the distance.  Eight bells.  Fenadeir would come soon, unless he had found someone else.  This was the perfect chance for her to test his interests. She waited for ten minutes with no sign of him. She dispaired.  It looked as if Janus was right, he did not care.  She couldn't dare enter that establishment to look for him, it seemed far to undignified.  She waited for another ten minute, but he did not appear.  She was just about to leave, when Fenadeir called to her.

     "Brigitte"
 
     She turned around, hopeful once more.  She dashed over to him as fast as her legs could carry her.  She gave him a hug as soon as she was close enough.  She had yet to noticed the solemn look upon his face.
 
     "Fenadeir.  You came.  Janus was wrong. You do care!" remarked Brigitte.
 
     "We need to talk, Miss Goddess," declared Fenadeir.
 
     Brigitte stepped away from him.  She sank her head down for a moment and sighed, before looking into Fenadeir's midnight blue eyes appologeticially.  Her grief was evident.  She knew her identity was no longer the well kept secret she had hoped.
 
     "Janus told you, didn't he?" asked Brigitte.
 
     "Yes.  He told me everything about you.  You're really a cat too.  That's just plain weird.  I don't know even want to get into that," affirmed Fenadeir.
 
     "I'm sorry I didn't tell you.  It's just... well... if I had told you you wouldn't have shown me such a wonderful time, would you have?" inquired Brigitte.
 
     "Honestly no," answered Fenadeir.  "I mean you're not even human---"
 
     "I know... I hear that all the time.  Good bye, Fenadeir." announced Brigitte.
 
     Brigitte ran off before Fenadeir could get another word in.  He did not chase her, but allowed her to leave alone.  He could do no good in talking to her, since he could never imagine what he could say to her.  She had pretending to be something she wasn't, how could he tell she wasn't pretending to be sad now?  She was a goddess, she's supposedly emotionless.  He had enough of his own thoughts to deal with, then to worry about hers.

* * *
 
     Brigitte ran silently through the serene Valenez outskirts.  Her eyes were lined with tears, that streamed down her cheeks like the last mournful raindrops of a dying storm.  She felt so alone, so uncared for.  No mortal could grasp the concept that she had emotions too.  She was subject to the same emotions that they possess, but she usually doesn't have reason to imply them.  She had rekindled her hidden emotions by returning to the mortal world and all she had to show for it was a broken heart.  Janus was right, she had lost touch with her emotions, but she no longer viewed that as a bad thing.  The suffering that she felt now was a thousand times worse than being indiffernt.  She had gotten her wish for adventure, and today was definitely a day like no other.  She had suffered physical and emotional pain.  She had hoped the Fenadeir would have realized that she was more than just some cat goddess, but he had been blinded by that as well.  She only longed to return home now, where everything was predictible.  Where the sun always shined, and she had no reason to get emotional.  Her temple was a wonderful place, and it was where she belonged.
 
     Brigitte drew ever closer to a white marble temple very similar to her own, that was posititioned attop the hill she now climbed.  This was the only temple in the entire country of Pandora erected in her honor.  She could use it to open a gateway back to the Nexxus.  Once through that gateway she would be rid of this wretched world forever and back in her only home.  She removed the collar she wore around her neck and held it before her.
 
     "Goodbye, my human form.  You are a symbol of my suffering, and I care to never see you again."
 
     Brigitte took the belled collar and smashed it to the marble floor of the temple.  The bell shattered, leaving only the ribbon to which it was attached.  Soon time would weather it and wear it down, until it was returned to the planet.  She could feel herself reverting to her true form, but the transformation seemed to run slow and she was left in her human form with a set of cat ears and a tail.  She knew she must look ridiculous and axiously awaited her full return to her orginal form.  As she stood facing the temple she heard a voice calling to her as it approached.
 
     "Brigitte!  Don't go just yet!"
 
     She knew it was Fenadeir before she even turned around so she didn't even bother.  She started to cry as he drew closer.  Hunched over in front of her own temple, weeping her eyes out, it was hard to imagine that she was a creature of such power.  Fenadeir tried to comfort her but she just pushed him away.
 
     "Don't look at me!  I've already started to return to my true body, which you find so repulsive!" hissed Brigitte.
 
     "Listen... I'm sure you're as pretty when a cat as you are when a girl.  I'm sorry that it can't work out, I mean you gotta understand, its not that I don't like you.  I mean we both know that we'd be better off with members of our own kind.  I mean I'm the mortal human and you're the cat goddess of life, that doesn't really work too well," explained Fenadeir.
 
     "I know you're right.  I guess I knew it was a bad idea to get too close to a mortal.  I will learn from this mistake," sighed Brigitte.
 
     "Don't worry about it too much.  You made a nice girl.  That's why I had to come and say goodbye.  Hey if we were both on the same side of this I guarantee it would've lasted more than a day.  It probably would have anyhow if Janus had kept his big mouth shut." commented Fenadeir.
 
     "I feel the same way.  Thank you for coming to say goodbye.  That was nice of you," remarked Brigitte.
 
     Fenadeir got closer to Brigitte once more.  He leaned over to kiss her, and she did not push him away.  For a brief momment they kissed.  Brigitte felt comforted by their final kiss.  Her heart was no longer as heavy as it had been, but she would not forget this day.  She longed to say behind with him, but she knew that could never be.  Wishes should remain distant dreams, and she cannot let them clutter the way to her true future.  She broke their kiss and moved closer to the temple.  She turned back to him one final time.
 
     "Goodbye, Fenadeir.  I hope your life sees few troubles," remarked Brigitte.
 
     "Goodbye, Brigitte, take care," replied Fenadeir.
 
     Brigitte walked up the marble stairs slowly.  She chose to stick to her decision never to return to this world .  She knew she would never see Fenadeir again, until the day he died.  Someday she would have to end his life as she had all other mortals before him.  Somehow that time would be different.  Things would always be different between them.  She could only hope that her sister Goddess, Deshu, controller of fate, would destine him to a longer life.  She would try not to think of it.  She knew far more pressing matters awaited her when she returned home.    Nixel had most likely made a terrible mess of her home.  With so much to do, she had faith she would soon bury these memories and move on.  Another serene day would begin anew, a day like every other for the Goddess of Life.